Jesús !!

aaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhh!!! al principio del año dije que este año lo iba a dejar de lado, que iba a dejar que se valla a Australia y que no me iba a importar para nada, por que después de todo, no paso nada, nunca. Pero es un poco difícil cuando me hace ayudantía de grammar todos los miércoles y ademas se me aparece a donde quiera que voy en la U. Esta empezando a desesperarme, que hago para sacármelo de la cabeza! *le odiooooo*

:C

empiezo el 2012 con esta sensación de estrés, puede que tenga algo que ver con el hecho de que estoy en clases, y con mil pruebas y trabajos por hacer, pero también hay un desgaste emocional que viene por otras cosas, cosas como que no he visto a mi mejor amiga des de Julio, o a mi amigo desde que se fue a USA en agosto del 2010 (a pesar de que ya volvió).
Y aparte de eso, hay un amigo que iba conmigo en el colegio, y que ahora esta en santiago, demasiado lejos, y hemos chateado mucho en este año, y me he vuelto super cercana a él, y me pone tan mal el que no este aquí, hay veces que me gustaría poder conversar con él cara a cara, pero no puedo.
y para colmo, estoy dándome cuenta de que este año cumplo 20 años, 20 AÑOS. me siento vieja :/.
Quizás solo sea que estoy sentimental y que soy estúpida, no lo se, solo quiero que se valla este sentimiento.

2012 bienvenido seas!!!

Ya empezó un nuevo año, y por alguna razón siempre he sentido que el nuevo año es una oportunidad para empezar de cero, que se puede dejar todo lo malo atrás como si fuera un momento mágico.

Siento que al ponerme nuevas metas, es mas fácil cumplirlas si empiezo el 1ro de enero. A lo mejor es algo estúpido, pero :/ Creo que así es como soy yo :D

Este año tengo un par de metas, una de ellas en seguir escribiendo en este blog,  no quiero dejarlo de lado como lo he hecho antes. No se si lo escribiré completamente en español, o completamente en ingles, lo más probable es que sea un poco de los dos, ya que este semestre tengo un ramo llamado "Writing and Composition" donde al parecer debo escribir bastante en ingles, y seria bueno escribir lo que escribo allí, aquí, de hecho ya tuvimos nuestra primera "tarea", el tema eran los héroes, y creo que mañana lo puedo escribir aquí.

Otra de mis metas para este 2012 es hacer videoblogs. Ya me lo había propuesto antes, en ingles, pero esta vez he decidido que seria mucho mas fácil si lo hago en español, después de todo es mi lengua materna no?. Incluso para navidad me regalaron una cámara de video, así que esta todo listo, solo me faltan las ganas para hacer los videos XD.

Aun hay mas metas para mi este año, pero las escribiré luego, por ahora solo quiero desear un feliz año nuevo a todo el mundo en Internet, que este nuevo año  traiga lo mejor a sus vidas. 

A post about what to write

I don't really know what to write about here. I wanted to write something like a diary, but then I realise that that would be probably one of the most boring things to do, It would go something like this:


           "So today I woke up, got into the shower, eat some breakfast, then scrolled down Tumblr, eat some lunch, kept scrolling down tumblr, then eat dinner. and now I'll go to bed. bye."


And it would be like that every single day, well maybe one day instead of Scrolling down Tumblr after lunch, I would play Nintendo (probably as exiting as it gets), but still really boring life.
So instead of doing a Diary-blog I will write only really interesting thins (yes I will try to do things daily), and when I don't have any interesting thing to write about, I will write about some theme, like Christmastime or friendship or whatever. The thing is that I don't wanna quit this blog. Even if I only write sh!t, I will keep posting stuff. that's one of my goals for this new me.
I will tell you everything later, until then
                                                                                          Have a nice life.

blah blah blah

I haven't write here, I should, hi. not like any body reads this, bye!

...

So today I wanted to writte about the good side of this years friendship, but something happened, a little kitty died, and it may sound stupid for some people, but, I just cried, I loved that kitty, and I love my friend, and even though I am only like 60 miles away, I can't go see her, and hug her, and tell her everything is gonna be ok, and that's killing me. I've been through that pain, the kind that makes you feel that your heart is coming out of your chest, that all this is a nightmare , and that any moment, you are gonna wake up, and everything will be ok, but you don't. And then you can't even cry, cause you ran out of tears.
Actually  there's no much I can say to her, except, I now that felling, and even though, it won't go away, after some time, It  wont hurt that much, and you'll be available to carry on, and remember him, with happiness.

I've said it before, and I'll say it again. I love you !

Friendship

So, when I started this year I met a lot of cool people, and with time I got a nice group of friends, we had lunch every Friday, and also had the girly Tuesdays, we had so much fun, but it only lasted until the movement begun, after that I was the only girl in the group that was supporting the movement. My friends, they just wanted the classes to start, I made friends with other people inside the movement, and we start talking less and less until we stop talking at all. Then came my birthday, and I wanted to do a little something, and I thought that that may help us get together again, but none of them could make it, and then I got into a little fight with my dad and post a stupid status on fb (oohh! stupid fb, I hate you so much) about it, my so call "friends" took it personal and got mad a at me :/. So instead of the "reconciliation" party that I had planed, I ate cake with my family, and spend the rest of the night with two friends (I know, pathetic, right?) after like a week I decided to talk to them again on MSN, but none of them sounded interest on talking to me back so after a month and a half of trying (yeah I'm stupid, I know, is just, I really appreciate friends), I quit, and since then I haven't talk to them in like 2 months now. And before writing this I just spend half hour, siting in front of my desk, looking at the floor and thinking, about burning bridges ( may the bridges I burn, light my way), and maybe everything turn out to me better. I mean, maybe they weren't my friends after all, may be they were just people, I got along with, and maybe the friends I have now are the ones that would stick until the end.

After all everything happens for a reason, isn't it? 

The point of this post is that I've being disappointed, and hurt, but all that, that doesn't matter because, the friends I have now, I love them and I wouldn't treat them for anything in the world.

Ani, te amiiiii :D